{"id":788,"date":"2019-03-17T14:08:30","date_gmt":"2019-03-17T18:08:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/carasthoughts.com\/?p=788"},"modified":"2019-03-19T22:19:54","modified_gmt":"2019-03-20T02:19:54","slug":"is-it-ever-enough","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/carasthoughts.com\/?p=788","title":{"rendered":"Is it ever enough?"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

When you feel you are doing all that you can but it\u2019s still\nnot right or enough. When the cracks in your heart that have been working so\nhard to mend are pulling apart and your chest feels a little heavier. The\nheaviness makes it just a little harder to breathe and forces your eyes to burn\nwith tears that you are forcing to control. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

How do you change that feeling? How can you make it hurt a\nlittle less or learn to accept what you are feeling and move past?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s questions like these that cause many to struggle. I\nknow just how real that struggle is. Some will get where they need to be and\njump that horrific hurdle. Others will reach it and not have the strength to\njump over it so they pull back and retreat in that shell. They go backwards in\na downward spiral that makes it greater to ever get back to where they need to\nbe in order to make that jump. Words and kindness from family and friends may\nsoften the feelings for that time but the weight is too heavy to endure and the\nthoughts in your head take over the words of love and support. It\u2019s a horrible\nspiral. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Each pain is individual. Yes, some feel the same but no one\ncan ever truly feel the pain within you. Each is tailored to your body\u2019s\nreaction. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Its days like this that you need to remember more than just that.\nLook around you as hard as it may be to see outside of what is inside. Whether\nit\u2019s the beautiful miracles you have and the smiles on their faces each time\nthey see you. Or it\u2019s that one friend that looks at you and their eyes confirm\nyour sadness and it allows you to soften just a little. Whether it\u2019s that song\nthat can take you to a place in time when you were happier than you are feeling\nat this moment. Each thing as tiny as it seems will try and fill each crack. It\ntakes time and a lot of it but time is what we have right now. Jump that hurdle\nas hard and how high as it seems to you. Let that weight lift so it\u2019s a little\nharder to pull you so far down. Reach for that hand. Look above you. Not at the\nperson trying to help in front of you but keep looking higher much higher to\nthe one that is trying to carry you. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019m sorry for that sadness. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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