All I hear, as I lay alone in the open room is the sound of\nwaves crashing, birds singing and the calm of the breeze surrounding me. I look\nout into the open water and my mind drifts back to the first time we came here\nwith the kids and how tiny they were. Sporting their onesies with pampers\nslightly sticking out of each leg hole while running excitedly in and out of each\nroom. The panic that passed while they ran across the marble floor mixed with\nthe excitement that they are running at all. If I close my eyes, I can still\nhear their little voices and giggles. I can see Giovanni\u2019s flowing curls as he\nbounced about and Isannah\u2019s full-face smile. When I open my eyes those memories\nfeel so long ago but at the same time just like it was yesterday. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now they are running around soon to be 9 years olds and\nholding conversations with one another. Playing together and just being who\nthey are supposed to be. One is an avid reader with a heart for baking, making\nmusic, dancing and acting. The other is a puzzle hungry solver, a creator at\nheart, a singer and guitar playing rock star. They have many more strong\ntalents, interests and they are learning more as time passes. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Being a mom has changed a lot in my life. It changed how I\nreact and has taught me how my words and reactions affect others especially two\nsmall humans. It\u2019s shown me how much more love I had inside. Love that is\nendless and unconditional. A love that hurts so much more when your little one\nis sad no matter what the reason. It\u2019s a feeling within you that aches at every\ncorner of your heart with both pain and joy. It also brings to surface the\nbreakdowns, fear, confusion and lack of confidence when questioning yourself\nabout everything you are doing. You learn and grow as your children learn and\ngrow. Although, we do it in different ways, we grow all the same. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Parenting is not easy and comes with so many mixed emotions\nbut those difficulties and emotions are worth all of it when you look at the\nmiracles you made before you. Words will never fully reflect all that is but\nonce you feel that feeling you will know. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now back to the open room I am laying in while listening to\nthe amazing sounds of life around me. The wind that blows through each open\ndoor and wraps around each corner while making it\u2019s final swirl around my body as\nif to hug me before blowing out of another open door, reminds me that life is\nstrong. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I hear the sounds of my children\u2019s voices coming up from the\nelevator. I know they are near. My heart begins to beat a little faster and my\nbody feels the warmth of their love. I carry them with me wherever I go and will\ntake me into the New Year.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Soon it will be time to say goodbye to 2019. Leaving the\nyear behind us but not the love, the knowledge, family and friends. Those\nthings will always come with us into the New Year. Here\u2019s to many love filled\nexperiences, challenges that will test you, faith that will carry you and hope\nthat all things are possible in 2020. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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