I can sit and stare at you while you sleep and want to hold you. Take in your smell and just be with you. Listen to you breathe and hear your heart beating just to know you are really here growing and becoming little people. When you are awake I see you learn, grow, laugh and play and my heart skips a beat but why do I feel like I need to be a better parent, be more patient? I don’t know why I feel like I’m not fulfilling my motherly duty. I love you more than words can ever say. You have all of me. I’d give my every last breath to you and my world is yours, then why this feeling?
Monthly Archives: February 2013
New spot are new adventures
Tucked away in a new corner they found, they sit together and smile. Giovanni grabbing a handful of snacks and sticking them in Isannah’s mouth. They both giggle and then it’s Isannah’s turn. She grabs one snack at a time and carefully places it in Giovanni’s mouth but before he can close his mouth she snatches it back and puts it in her mouth. The giggles turn into loud laughter and there begins my cheek ache from smiling so much. They are always just what I need…
Some days…
Some days are good, some days are ok, some days have you walking on cloud nine, and some days make you feel like your insides are crumbling slowly and each break hurts so much you can’t breathe. This is when you have to remember the days that warm your heart and help keep that smile on your face. No matter what the weight is it is up to you to push it off and let it lift way up high. It will find it’s way to someone who will help you breathe again and give you hope that tomorrow will only get better. All you need is faith.