It’s been a long time since the house has been this quiet. The kids are napping upstairs while Grizzly is asleep downstairs. The only sound I hear is the humming of the central air fading in and out. There’s calmness all around me but why is the room so heavy? I feel like my thoughts are pulling me in all different directions and it’s making me so tired. My body so heavy. I try to breathe in and out softly hoping my mind will calm but it doesn’t. Is there a turn off switch so I can stop the thoughts that don’t need my immediate attention or the pains that way heavy on my shoulder. Why can’t I just push those things aside and think of all that is right now in front of me. Like the chance to just relax and take in the stillness of the moment. How do I learn to be in the moment? These are some of my battles within myself that I try to handle with memories of loved ones. Thoughts of the children and special events that fill my days. I do my best to focus on all that is good in my life and I remember all that was not so good to remind me I am who I am today because of all of it. Life is full of many things not all good but this is the way we learn how to truly appreciate the good in our lives. If there was no hurt and pain how would we truly know and feel love and happiness. Things have a way of coming together and making sense. Sometimes it takes a long time to figure out just what that is but in time you do. I guess this is my reminder to myself.