It’s a day of remembering those we loved along the way and those we carry in our hearts as we continue our journey of life. God has a way of making things happen. Although not always as we like or on our time but on his time and then we accept it. We learn that we are where we need to be at that moment. He sees the big picture when all we usually see is today and what’s in front of us now. It is sometimes difficult but we must open our heart and life to him and he will guide us and keep us safe. Memories in the past keep us guided and warm to be ready to create new memories to take us further. Blessings to you all.
Enjoy life and always remember there is so much more to do and see…ride the train
Train of Life
Some folks ride the train of life
Looking out the rear,
Watching miles of life roll by,
And marking every year.
They sit in sad remembrance,
Of wasted days gone by,
And curse their life for what it was,
And hang their head and cry.
But I don’t concern myself with that,
I took a different vent,
I look forward to what life holds,
And not what has been spent.
So strap me to the engine,
As securely as I can be,
I want to be out on the front,
To see what I can see.
I want to feel the winds of change,
Blowing in my face,
I want to see what life unfolds,
As I move from place to place.
I want to see what’s coming up,
Not looking at the past,
Life’s too short for yesterdays,
It moves along too fast.
So if the ride gets bumpy,
While you are looking back,
Go up front, and you may find,
Your life has jumped the track.
It’s all right to remember,
That’s part of history,
But up front’s where it’s happening,
There’s so much mystery.
The enjoyment of living,
Is not where we have been,
It’s looking ever forward,
To another year and ten.
It’s searching all the byways,
Never should you refrain,
For if you want to live your life,
You gotta drive the train!
Pete the Cat
I witnessed the sweetest thing tonight. The kids were going through the selection of books they had when Isa picked one up sat on the ground and began reading. There she went talking about Pete the Cat. The color of his new shoes as she pointed and turned the page. She got each page right including the “goodness no”. It was absolutely adorable. Asher and I couldn’t help but smile and kind of giggle while looking at her then at each other until she got to the last page and said, “thank you, the end.” She is growing up so quickly. As I’m writing this I realize just how much and how adorably sweet she is. She is our little girl, oops I mean princess as she now refers to herself.
Love was planted
It’s the first time in a long while that I sat alone in this room. Windows down, wind blowing and kissing me from all angles of the room. Giovanni’s laughter coming through the kitchen window as he plays on the deck. While Isannah sleeps peacefully upstairs. The sounds of The National playing on the radio fills the room and my mind. I can’t help but follow the kids pictures going up the stairs along the exposed brick wall as if experiencing each milestone, each moment for the second time. Each smile, each laughter brings both a calm and fear throughout my body. These two beautiful souls are ours to help grow, live and love. As much as I’m afraid (terrified) I have this hope that we are where we are supposed to be. My mind reflects back to a place on a white sand beach hearing waves crash along the stone, and an image in front of me an image I will never forget. It was Asher lying on a beach chair looking into the ocean with thoughts, I wish I could read but the feeling that mattered at that moment was me falling in love with him. As I stared at him my heart was filling and my body felt whole. A love so strong was planted. As I continue looking at these photos I feel that that moment in Aruba caused all of this to blossom. I sit here with the breeze whipping through the house like the sounds of the ocean waves that day. The day it truly began.
Heavenly Day
Had the most amazing evening with the one who completes me. We headed to Prospect Park to listen to Patty Griffin under the stars. As her voice surrounded us and the cool breeze caressed us I laid my head in the lap of the man who holds my heart. I looked up into his eyes and then it happened. Our wedding song played beautifully and so emotionally in the background. All of the sudden I was on that dance floor surrounded by family and friends while we danced our first dance as husband and wife. It was a “Heavenly Day” and night!
Family adventure
What a breathtakingly beautifully calm family day. The sun was shining brightly and so happy being caressed by the wind that would blow at all the right times. The kids laughter as the wind pushed at them had a smile on my face for hours as we played along the water. It was a family day that was needed and so appreciated. Grizzly made the adventure although all he wanted to do was lay. As the kids played so joyfully they glanced over at Grizz every now and again to make sure he was safe. I loved every minute of the day. I loved looking over at my husband who was smiling at every angle. Whether he was staring at Grizz or looking over at the kids. There were times that I caught him staring in my direction and that’s when my smile softened and my body warmed. At the moments I caught his eyes in my direction I looked up at that sky so blue and thanked God for the miracles that surround us every day. Now I lay while the kids nap listening to the wind filling our home and the Beatles on the radio. What an end to a beautiful day.
Alone time with the little man
I spent the day with my little man today and it was unbelievably beautiful. His kind heart showed in everything he did. From the smile of appreciation on his face to the giggles he released just because to the unexpected hugs he gently gave me showed me just how sweet this boy is. We started at the dealership and ended with a stroll through the toy stores. It was a fun filled day with a boy who gave hope and faith a new meaning. As our day was coming to an end Giovanni turned to me and said he missed Isannah. As if my heart couldn’t melt any more it began pouring. Not only did he miss her he was sure to pick out a few things he thought she would like at the toy store then told me that we needed to bring Isannah here too. The love that grows within you has no limits.
First date every day
Do you remember that feeling you got when you were about to go on your first date? You kept changing your clothes, you paced in anticipation, you were giddy and your stomach was doing flips. Then you heard him coming to your door. Your heart skipped a beat and you rushed to greet him. When you opened that door all of the sudden a calm of warmth came across your body. That’s my every day. That is how I feel every time I look into my husbands eyes. My stomach has butterflies when he walks by and brushes any part of my body and the calm passes through me when I wake in the morning and see him peacefully sleeping next to me. I love having a first date every day.
Drool filled kisses
I never thought I would say that the best kisses I received this evening were wet drooled and licked all over my face. Giovanni showed me so much love during bath time. Kissing my face one kiss at a time without allowing a second to pass between each kiss. It was like a licking kissing combination but I loved every moment of it. When I thought he was done and it was time to dry him he would say, “one more time, mommy” and start all over again. My heart melted and I couldn’t let him go. I took it all in and saved it in my heart so I can always keep them close in times of sadness. It’s times like these that make you appreciate all the good and know the difference. I hope you all feel unconditional, innocent and pure love that fills your soul and keeps you smiling from the inside out.
Gio’s first tantrum
Today I experienced Giovanni’s first full on temper tantrum. Wow, seeing him react that way pulled at every heart string. I can always calm him down, love on him, kiss him and make it all better but not this time. At least not at that moment. He was hysterical over wanting more ice-cream. He was sitting at the table in his booster seat when he began demanding more ice-cream and pointing at a spot on the table and yelling right there. When he didn’t get more ice-cream he lost it even more. No matter what was done or said he wouldn’t stop. After the first attempt to calm him with his hands and arms flaring while saying no, I knew I had to back away. After Asher got him down and talked to him on the kitchen floor matters only escalated. It was about 20 minutes from beginning to the point where he began yelling mommy and please. I knew something in his voice was different and I felt that if I went to him now he would welcome me which he did. Climbing on my lap and resting his head on my shoulders while grasping for air made my heart melt. My baby boy is becoming a bigger boy standing proud in his 2 year old phase. Please God help me.